Ramblings of a Homebound ediot

[Sidd]

My Dear friends,

I am writing after such a long time. I am not only referring to posting here but generally writing all together. I have not been to the club for a single frame, I cant stand it, I miss the green baize, I miss my snooker pals and I miss you all on this forum.

It is indeed crazy how things shape the course of your life. I believe nothing is a happenstance and that everything happens for a reason. My daughter is doing well, fighting on and surviving, she has a VSD and for me as a father, it is devastating and nerve-wrecking and the same goes for her mom. But we are all fighting and staying strong with an unknown surety that God is there and is helping us all survive. What is crazy in all this is the following:

I was a man who could not breathe without snooker and I had to play everyday. My daughter's condition forced me to take a break and then this break made me concentrate on my writing, which is what I always adored. When someone hinted on this forum (yes yes J6UK it was you no doubt) that what I yearn for is writing rather than snooker, I did not know that he was right. Anyway, I have been concentrating on my writings and recently got my first book published through Amazon of course but hey who care who published it or how did it get published- it is out there now and it is real and that is what matters to a writer the most.

If you are interested, you can get a copy from http://www.amazon.com/Dance-Melancho...=9781493687428 I am using Q. M. Sidd as my pen name.

So now I am writing again. I have written two short stories, will publish them when I complete at least 10... and am working on my first Novel I have finally decided to keep my snooker a weekend sport now. When I was too much involved in it even then I did not have any intentions to become a professional ... but after becoming an author i do feel now that perhaps writing is what I have always wanted to do and something I am a bit good at. Writing asks for reading a lot as well and hence I am reading a lot again.

I would still sometimes visit this forum and keep bothering you- not to ask technique related questions anymore but perhaps just to say hello.

Thank you again each and every one of you and especially people like Terry, J6UK, Steve, Throt, Itsnoteasy and everyone else... What I have learnt about the game is precious to me and a gift that I will always cherish... thanks again guys.. I am sorry I did not come up to your expectations as a snooker player but at times one has to take a decision.

Cheers,
Sidd.

[Neil Taperell]

Sounds like you have found your vocation in life Sidd........hope your daughter gets better .

[itsnoteasy]

What a post Sidd, I wish you well, and luck in whatever you and your family do, all the best.

[Byrom]

lovely post - May I just say that expectations in a persons heart that are lived up to are more important than any expectations that you may hold of anything else in life - a few people on here like you seem to exceed these and its nice.

Good luck with the writing - keep enjoying the snooker occasionally and my blessings to you and your family and prayers to your daughter kudhaffis.

[DeanH]

Ramblings of a Homebound ediot

nice write up. Our prays are with you and your family.
Glad you are keeping busy with writing. Do you include snooker or snooker related terms in your stories? People can try and find the references
all the best

[j6uk]

A great ending

[arbitrage]

My Dear friends,

I am writing after such a long time. I am not only referring to posting here but generally writing all together. I have not been to the club for a single frame, I cant stand it, I miss the green baize, I miss my snooker pals and I miss you all on this forum.

It is indeed crazy how things shape the course of your life. I believe nothing is a happenstance and that everything happens for a reason. My daughter is doing well, fighting on and surviving, she has a VSD and for me as a father, it is devastating and nerve-wrecking and the same goes for her mom. But we are all fighting and staying strong with an unknown surety that God is there and is helping us all survive. What is crazy in all this is the following:

I was a man who could not breathe without snooker and I had to play everyday. My daughter's condition forced me to take a break and then this break made me concentrate on my writing, which is what I always adored. When someone hinted on this forum (yes yes J6UK it was you no doubt) that what I yearn for is writing rather than snooker, I did not know that he was right. Anyway, I have been concentrating on my writings and recently got my first book published through Amazon of course but hey who care who published it or how did it get published- it is out there now and it is real and that is what matters to a writer the most.

If you are interested, you can get a copy from http://www.amazon.com/Dance-Melancho...=9781493687428 I am using Q. M. Sidd as my pen name.

So now I am writing again. I have written two short stories, will publish them when I complete at least 10... and am working on my first Novel I have finally decided to keep my snooker a weekend sport now. When I was too much involved in it even then I did not have any intentions to become a professional ... but after becoming an author i do feel now that perhaps writing is what I have always wanted to do and something I am a bit good at. Writing asks for reading a lot as well and hence I am reading a lot again.

I would still sometimes visit this forum and keep bothering you- not to ask technique related questions anymore but perhaps just to say hello.

Thank you again each and every one of you and especially people like Terry, J6UK, Steve, Throt, Itsnoteasy and everyone else... What I have learnt about the game is precious to me and a gift that I will always cherish... thanks again guys.. I am sorry I did not come up to your expectations as a snooker player but at times one has to take a decision.

Cheers,
Sidd.

this is a great book! interesting topics too

[Sidd]

Sounds like you have found your vocation in life Sidd........hope your daughter gets better .

Thanks pal. Yes I guess I just did. Because this is something I can look up to till I die Cheers

[Sidd]

What a post Sidd, I wish you well, and luck in whatever you and your family do, all the best.

Thanks Buddy. Thanks a lot

[Sidd]

lovely post - May I just say that expectations in a persons heart that are lived up to are more important than any expectations that you may hold of anything else in life - a few people on here like you seem to exceed these and its nice. My God is this Tennyson what a great choice of words.

Good luck with the writing - keep enjoying the snooker occasionally and my blessings to you and your family and prayers to your daughter kudhaffis.

Thank you so much. Khudahaffis to you too but not in a Khudahaffis Khudahaffis kind of a way. I would still lurk around here

[Sidd]

nice write up. Our prays are with you and your family.
Glad you are keeping busy with writing. Do you include snooker or snooker related terms in your stories? People can try and find the references
all the best

That is a great idea. I would add an article in my memoir about me and my snooker named "A Clandestine Affair" LOL and yes when one of my characters is caught by the police and he has no apparent way out I could say that he was snooked

[Sidd]

A great ending

You are too much Mr J6UK this is one of my all time favourite movies and I never knew it would apply to me in this way, wow and yes well I initially read that you wrote that it was writing that I did here on the forum rather than practicing and I thought no he cant be right but then when I think of it now I think yes I LOVED writing about snooker here on this forum more than playing the game thanks for hinting in that direction boss.

Interesting thing here is that whoever learns that I not playing these days like my family friends colleagues etc do not trust me and some even think there is something wrong with me cuz Sidd without snooker is a concept they cant digest LOL and neither can I but well I am just going with the flow, lets see.

[Sidd]

this is a great book! interesting topics too

Thank you so very much my dear friend. You have no idea how your apparently small and seemingly simple sentence has energized me.

[Chappy5]

All the best Sid even though i am new here but a really good post.

[Sidd]

this isn't a show-off, it couldn't be. Just felt like sharing my feelings

This is amazing but now that I reflect on the past, I was always up for this task as if I was being prepared or something. I would like to share a couple of things from my life here.

1. I was educated in a missionary school and a missionary college, both run by the church of England, and therefore I have had many Christian friends since childhood. I have read their Catechism books and they my Islamic books. So I learnt inter-faith harmony since my early days and learnt how to celebrate diversity. I am lucky really and thanks to my mom (it was her decision to put me there- my dad could have put me anywhere really LOL- dads are dads no) so I believe my horizons were broadened and my mental faculties including my understanding on religion and God and the philosophy of religion and God strengthened. So yes do not be surprised if I quote from the gospel of John Yes I can quote and understand the Quran as well as the Bible and I am extremely happy about it. You know this broadened my mind and made me understand God better. My quote here is that 'religion is for us and not for God. We fight amongst ourselves for our religion for our God who incidentally does not happen to have a religion' FOOD FOR THOUGHT !!!

2. Someone who read my book remarked, your writing style is inspired by the British authors and I was like hell yeah man what else did you expect from a person being brought up in a common wealth country being educated in an English missionary schooling system. I grew up with Blyton, Dickens, Bronte, Austen, Wilde, Christie and others of the like. Attending library and issuing and reading books was made mandatory by our principal and today I LOVE HIM for that.

3. Since an early age, English as a language, sort of started coming to me automatically. I do not know was it because of the books I read or writing letters to my cousins in England or my English teachers but there was this weird thing in me that when I heard a sentence I would automatically know it was wrong even without knowing what was wrong in it and then I tried to find out what was it and that was hard as there was no google no internet but only books to look upto but I did. So these things improved my grammar, punctuation and comprehension and sentence and speech construction.

4. Whenever I watched snooker like the matches of ROS and every other match, I could not watch a match without commentary. If there was a clip like some of the PTCs and internationals where there is no commentary I did not watch them. I just couldn't. what joy is there if the likes of the whispering Ted, My heart favourite Taylor, Virgo (where is cue ball goin . I have enjoyed words all my life- listening to them and writing them.

Last but not the least- I was reading some creative writing stuff lately and then this phrase came to me upon seeing which I literally stopped reading about creative writing all together. It was written 'every creative must know that there is a creative writing TECHNIQUE that they must learn' wo wo wo no no no stop stop stop I said I am not buying this na na na na na sorry nope go away I can write with my heart - I understood immediately what I meant to be a technique freak that I have been and playing snooker with your heart gosh

Well I dont know guys. Guess what: I have been having dreams hahahaa yes that is true dreams about playing snooker in my club at least three times in the past two months my subconscious is still there yeah! And I am sure I would keep playing on and off.

Love ya all- always,
Sidd.